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Monday, September 25, 2017

Keluarga

Bukan baru semalam sudah bersua muka? Mengapa hari ini terasa rindu yang sangat membungkam? Haish. 

Tanya sama awan, awan meredupkan wajah.
Tanya sama langit, langit menjurai air mata.
Tanya sama hati, kentalkah kau dinihari?

Nak balik rumah!!! Cepatlah midsem break. Huhuhu.

Semoga Allah jaga kalian dimana kalian berada.

Love,
AH

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Airasia gave me free customade photobook

Early august, I got an email from airasia. They suprised me with super early wish for my birthday with the present too. Waahh. So niceeee.

Those who asked me who is the first one wish my birthday, I would declare- airasia. Now, you are my boyfriend. Hahaha.

Basically, I got three options for my birthday gift.






I can only choose one. So, I choose photobook. Because the deadline is pretty late, so I don’t need to rush making decision and choosing nice photo.

Yea, its took me quite a long time to customise my pictures. So, i just manage finish it just now and place my order. Now, I just wait my gift to be seding to my house. I can’t wait. I feel impatient. Hehehe.

So, thank you airasia for the gift!

I will update when the photobook arrive at my house, okey?

Love,
AH

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

What Surah Yusuf told me about

I'm having difficulty to update new post because my hormones are still not stable and I am still trying to adapt with this new atmosphere. It seemed pretty struggling. I have a lot of stories to share but I really cannot find perfect timing to write about it.

Some of my schedules are quite packed. I have class from 9.00am to 10.00pm and I definitely would feel exhausted at the end of the day. Huh. Please pray for me ya!

InsyaAllah. I think I want to share something I just read. I found it quite refreshing especially for this moment of mine. (I need all those refreshing reminder TT) It was about Surah Yusuf (chapter 12 in al-quran). I read from Khawatir Quraniyah by Ustaz Amru Khalid.

Basically, in al-Quran, Surah Yusuf has told us about a timeline of Nabi yusuf's life journey, from the very beginning when he was a kid until he became the minister of Egypt. This surah, is the only surah  that telling us a life journey of prophet. Almost complete and particular. And the prophet was Nabi Yusuf. Not any other prophet. So the question is why, he is the chosen one and what is actually Allah wants to tell us?

From this book (refer to Khawatir Quraniyah), it described that Surah Yusuf wasn't telling us about his prophecy but his life as a mankind, human being. Surah Yusuf is actually something Allah wanted to highlight life is never be perfect. It will has flaws, troubles, tests after tests and all. It happened to all people, include all the prophets themselves.

Surah Yusuf told us, life is all about tests, either it is good or not good. If it is good, its tests how we could be humble to the one who gives the goodness and be thankful. If it is not good, its tests how we be able to be patient, keep positive to what He plans for us and probably work even harder.

Furthermore, one thing I found refreshing in this surah is, the fact of Allah sees us not like what human see toward us. Because only Allah can analyze and know what is in our heart. People only see the outside appearance which everybody can sometime fake it. But, not for Allah. Allah sees every tiny layer in our heart and he knows what is the best test for us to endure so that we can be a better person in future.

Always always always remember, tests are not given in our life to make ourselves worse or be in bad condition. Definitely not. Tests are something like wire brush used to remove stains in our heart. It's going hurt in some other way, but for sure your heart will keep clean and healthy during the cleaning state.

Because at last, we want to meet our Lord with clean and beautiful heart.

This surah is not only applicable for ourselves, not only for our practicing in daily life but also to understand other's people life too. If we know some tests are not easy for us, so other people too. We are designed differently in unique ways. If you have ups and downs life, so other people too. Never never never ever judge other's people life, if we don't even have any idea what kind of life they have been through.

You cannot judge, but what you can do is, give helpful advise is needed (if you're able to) but if you can't do, praying is more than enough. Don't talk behind. Don't assuming. DON'T!

Keep improving ourselves and keep doing self betterment. Focus on your lacking and give positive vibes to other. That is how we want to help others people. Islam is beautiful, so are Muslim. If we're still not beautiful, then we need to learn Islam better.

Inch by Inch

Bukit Panorama, Pahang  03042016

Love
AH

Thursday, September 14, 2017

AH turns to 22

It was suprising when my friends secretly planned to celebrate my birthday last night. 

Honestly, I'd never thought they had planned all these things. Because, usually I always celebrated my birthday at home with my family. But this year is a bit different. So, I don't have any expectation. AT ALL. 

Yesterday, I was a bit busy. Running here and there. Meeting with faculty dean. Meeting with my fyp supervisor. Classes and late night class. Touching up my final intership report. So yeah. I was quite tired and less energized.

I had late night class for digital system. I left my room a bit earlier because I wanted to binding my intership report and logbook before heading to my class. So, I basically didn't have any expection about their planning. And they were very good at acting because I didn't suspected anything. 

I went back from my class, as I was in front of my room's door, I tried to open my door but its locked and my room sound quiet like my roomate already fell asleep. Then somebody unlocked the door. I still didn't suspect anything. As I came in, I was mesmerised. The room was dark. But suddenly, I heard birthday song was sung. And I saw some figures inside my room. Then the light is on. Tadaaaa.

I can't stop smiling and I can't stop feeling blessed. I was about to cry because what they had done is priceless gifts for me. I am grateful to be overwhelmed by their loves and cares. They are amazing souls. They are the people who worth to keep and to love.

From the very beginning I was in this uni life up until now, they're always be by my side. They are always here to support me, to be with me through thicks and thins, ups and downs and all the roller coster moments. They are always here. They never left me.

After I blew the candles and cut the cake, we ate food and we did one girly activity. Hahaha. We make-up each other with our limited collection make-up stuffs. Bahaha. Its so fun. I never did this activity before. Well, being engineering student, we don't really bother how we looks like. So make-up is totally out of our capabilities and needs. But, please don't assume that we don't know how to wear make-up. Make-up is nature of ladies, even we don't use it, we can do make-up pretty well.

Then we took photos and chilling and teasing everybody how we looked like.  Last night I had so much fun. Alhamdulillah. I am glad, Allah sent them to be a part of my journey.

I coundn't be prouder to have them in my life. Honestly, they are one of the reason I want to fight again in my study. I want to convo together with them. I want to be in the same row with them during graduation ceremony. I know, it might be tough journey but if I don't try, I never know where and what is my limit. I believe as long as they are with me, everything will be just fine, fun and fascinating journey. 

May Allah help me and guide me through. Strengthen me and brighten up my final year journey. I want to fight not because I am strong. But, I will fight because I have the one who The Most Strongest. 

May Allah help me and my dear friends to complete this journey successfully.

To my dear friends, the one who master mind this celebration, the one who wish and pray for me, the one who remember this date.

Thank you very much for your wishes. I couldn't be prouder to have you guys in my life. May Allah grants every little dua and wish you made for me and I hope, all your dua and wish shall be returned to you as well and hopefully in multiple rewards. Love you guys soooo much.




Love,
AH

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Adapt to new semester

This week is the first week of new semester as final year student. I have been quite busy for this few days. Arranging my schedule, adapting with new surrounding (well being a super senior for undergraduate student is quite challenging though), running here and there to complete so many things especially this week I have to submit all my report, forms and logbook for my industrial training. Attending class and meeting for my projects. Fuhh.

*Take a deeeeep breath*

Two big projects so far have been assigned; CAPSTONE and FYP

Extra credits were added in my course. This semester I'm gonna take 6 credits extra from other student because I want regrading my previous grade. I was very nervous and afraid to face all these things but who's gonna do for me except me?

Please pray for me for this new journey. I want to graduate on time. InsyaAllah. I want to finish all these things with passion and ambition.

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Love,
AH

Wednesday, September 06, 2017

5 things I miss about Korea

Whoever follows me since four years ago would ever know how I am so related with Korea. No no. I wasn't born in Korea. Even though I might have Korean looks because of my slanty eyes (lol), yet I am not. I am malay-chinese mix. Purely mixed. Hahaha.

My father has been working in Korea for almost 4 years. So alhamdulillah, I got the opportunity to go to Korea twice. Not as many as Pooh. (She is the youngest, of course she got extra chances than me *roll eyes *)

First time I went to Korea for a week. The second time for a month.

I never had a dream to ever come to Korea. Honestly Korea is not in my travelist once ago. But after traveling and getting lost in Korea. Korea now, is one of my favorites place that I wish to come all over again. And whenever I miss about Korea, I would either throwback my gallery and look out old pictures or watch korean drama.

There are few things I really miss about Korea:

One. The view from my dad's apartment. It was so calming. The breeze from the seaside was so soft and soothing. I love the atmosphere around my dad's apartment especially on the night. I miss walking alone along the road while licking my baskin robbin ice cream.

Two. Praying in small mussolla. Traveling in non-Islamic county somehow pushed me to be a humble people and learn to be grateful. I had experience praying in open public place where I had to lay my outer coat on floor so that I could perform sujood properly. I felt blessed. At the moment, I truly felt the responsibility of being abid and khalifah is burdened on my shoulder.

Three. Kebab and foods from other countries. During my second time in Korea, I was ordered by my mom to cook my everyday meal by my own self especially whenever I wanted to go out. My mom is strictly ordered me to not easily eat any food outside home unless it's stated the halal certification. So, when I went to Seoul, it was super heaven because in Seoul it was easily to get halal food especially in itaewon.

Four. Public transportation in Korea is tip top! I love traveling in Korea because when I got lost, I didn't have to worry. I can mapped and accessing free wifi almost at every where. And yeah, getting lost and wandering here and there is so like me.

Five. Coffee and cafe. The last thing I damnly miss about Korea is its cafe. Cafe is everywhere. And most of the cafe i'd gone to is freaking elegant and calming. Argh. One of my favorite is Caffe bene. They got bingsu in their menu. 









Here some pictures.
The first picture is the most delicious bingsu I ever eat.
Can't wait to have some more.

Traveler,
AH

Tuesday, September 05, 2017

Introduction about MakangStreet

If you ever read my previous post, I did mention about my new project. Me and my sister, Pooh will collaborate to do online business and our focus is in local food industry. We are sooo excited about this. We hope this business will help a lot of people out there and we can grow our potential in entrepreneurship arena.

InsyaAllah, this new project we name it MakangStreet. 



I can't tell you exactly what it is right now because we are still in progressing, but if the project run accordingly, I will let you guys be the first one to know, okey?

I would like to invite you guys to join/follow our instagram and facebook page so that you can stay update with us.

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By the way, we have good news to any food vendor (especially local food), we would like to invite you guys to collaborate with us. Please send us an email for future detail.


Sunday, September 03, 2017

Keep learning

Having difficulty to sleep again. Even though sometimes I'd already felt quite sleepy, but when I was about to put my head on pillow, the sleepiness is suddenly gone. Huh. Gone to nowhere. Geez.

So...

I try to put my mode on reading but it's too dark here. I can't see clearly and my iPad brightness couldn't help it too. So, I just forget about it. Hmm.. let's try sorting out unimportant topic(s) here. Just to kill the time.

When I was in form three, I had crushed with one guy. He was my classmate. He was prefect. One of best student in my batch during that time. Not so handsome but got his own style. I couldn't remember what made him so special for me but one thing I surely remember is I was crazy about him at that time.

Reminiscing about that so immature story, I guessed I was the foolish person on the earth. How can I did such stupid things in my life?

I was too naive. I trusted him so much. Because he was good with words. And I was easily be fooled by his words and promises. I almost got into 'serious' couple-ship. But luckily, we are not, because I got to know he cheated behind my back. He had another girl while adjusting my feeling. He is such horrible man.

He is one of my excuses why I barely get into serious relationship. I know maybe people would say it was just immature phase of teenager journey. People make mistakes. We live to learn. Yayaya. But its hard for me to forget what had been done. I don't keep any grudge against him. I forgive him but I don't easily forget the experience.

I learn from this experience and be more careful in future so that I don't be fooled twice.

As growing up, I realized, falling in love isn't a destination. Getting the right person isn't the ultimate goal. Having marital relationship isn't the mission of life. But, they are sent to our life is just to be a part of our journey. Not to complete but to complement.

He is not the only one who ever came to my life. He is not the only person who ever knocked my door. I had series of heart broken episodes in my life. So no blaming or pointing out other mistakes. I just want to remind myself that people come and go. Everyone that's been in my life has been there for a reason. Either to teach me, to love me or to experience life with me. Cheers for everything.

Allah never put us in condition that beyond our capabilities. Allah never put us in such situations for nothing.

So, let's stop here. Because it's already subooh. And yeah, I don't sleep for today. Ergh...



Life isn't always a straight path, it has turn and roundabout, we have to make mistakes so that we can learn and appreciate some value in our life in future. And don't let small things become our ultimate goal but find the ultimate goal and let the small things become the journey.

Love,
AH

Sunday, September 03, 2017

Book collection | The Success Factor & The Confidence Factor

Having a little much time before new semester begins, so I am thinking to find new good book to read. I truly believe in order to enrich our mind and attitude, its starts with reading. Reading good book will impact ourselves to be positive and it will grow our mind too.

We are what we feed our mind and our soul. 

Tonight (probably; last night because its already 2.00 am), I went to Popular at Jusco Melaka. Being surrounded by so many books gives me an anxiety feeling sometime, because I can't control myself from touching all books there and spending minimum two hours in the bookstore.

I love books so much (especially the one with old paper smell).

Unfortunately, I am two weeks unemployed daughter, so I didn't have so much savings to spend for new book. The only choice I have, is my devoted banker; (it can't be anyone except my mom). After negotiating with innocent cute face, my mom gave RM70 to spend for the new book. Yas!

'I should use this money wisely'

'If I can find, RM35 ringgit book. I can buy two books. Two is great though'

'But usually good book will cause me more that 45 ringgit'

'I only have 70 ringgit. I couldn't buy two books for 70 ringgit. Not enough money. Should I ask my mom for more?'

'No no. If I can find one book with two things I need inside the book. And the price is lesser than 70 ringgit, I will buy that book.'

I monologued while walking to self-enrichment shelf.

As I thought, so many books to be listed in my wishlist. I need MORE times to figure out and go through roughly all the contents of the books. But, the time is already near to 10.00pm. It's about closing time. Argh, I was so frustrated. WHY this situation happen to me!!! 



So, after making some quick review on few books. I managed to grab one good book. Hopefully, this is the right one for me. 'Allah please choose the right one for me.' Whatever good from His eye, is surely good for me.



2-in-1 special edition. TWO BOOKS IN ONE is SUPER GREAT!. Gladly, I got discount too! Weeehuuu. Good book will beat my crack iphone. *Roll eye to my iphone* Hahaha. Looking forward to share some contents from this book to you guys. I found it quite interesting after reading one page. It has a LOT inspirational quotation and motivational sayings too. So.. till next time!

Love,
AH

Saturday, September 02, 2017

Eidul Adha 2017

Bismillahirahmanirahim,

Alhamdulillah, today was a great day. Because it was quite long time we haven't BBQ session in our family. So today we did qurban in my mom's hometown at Melaka. One cow and one goat. So, the meat we got from korban we made satey and BBQ steaks with kampung version.

It's quite happening and we really enjoy it. I eat A LOT!! Even though this raya abah couldn't manage to back home and celebrate eidul adha with us but we try not to feeling sad and gloomy. We know if we sad, abah would sadder than us. So, we just did everything like he is with us. And I don't want my mom felt the absence of my dad, so what me and my siblings did we just teased each other and made fun of each other until my mom laugh and had no time to be alone.

We started making satey quite late because the qurban started after jumaah prayer. All the gotong royong activity began a lil bit late. But we managed to make everything with full speed of house power. Yayaya.

Presented to you.....
*drum roll *


Lamb satey. Sorry for not so quality pictures. Living without iPhone is a struggle. Hahaha. 

I had fun and enjoyed my day today. Alhamdulillahi ala kulli ni'mah. 

Thinking of the story behind eidul adha, I believe Eidul adha is not just about slaughtering cow goat or whatever. Eidul adha is beyond than that. The story of Nabi Ibrahim AS and Nabi Ismail AS is one of the greatest reminder from Allah to us. Allah taught us about the value of total submission from slaves to his/her Rabb is incredibly amazing. When they had had to do such sacrifice that out of human's normality just for the sake of Rabb, is a solid proof to how their love to Rabbi Alamein is beyond their love to human. No doubt. No hesitation. What Nabi Ibrahim AS and Nabi Ismail AS did, is something related to this ayah below.



They'd already proved to Allah, their love is not just with words and not only in mouth but also with their action.

So how are we?
How about us?
What is our proof to say that we really love Allah?
Every year, repeatedly, the same story have been told to us, aren't?
So how much and how deep the story left to us?

Haven't we slaughtered our ego and worldly attachment of dunia?
And redirect our goal and give total submission of our heart, soul and everything to the only Almighty Allah?

Time to ponder..

Love,
AH

Friday, September 01, 2017

Another LCD screen break

Fuh... knowing that you are now unemployed and waiting for scholarship money to get into your bank account.. is such a loooonnnggg road to walk through.. the struggle is extremely real, dude!

Let me tell you, being an iphone user sometime test you a lot! Why? When you break your screen, the money you have to pay to fix the screen is like you can buy new android phone. Especially, if the iphone is 6s series and above. And can you imagine, I already broke my iphone screen two times in a year! Duhh!

And the struggle is, when I make resolution early of this year, I wont ever ask my parent's money for my personal thing, if I want to buy something out of my needs I have to find the money by my own self or do some savings, but then the intention of making that resolution is being tested throughout the journey T__T

Being independent is not easy. Managing the money is kinda tough too! Nowadays, I have a small note book to record my money in and out of my pocket. I have to do that because I have to know where my money go and how well I spend and manage my money. Being an adult is so tiring and troublesome sometime because you have to organize your life, you have to think a lot before making decision, you have to look forward and know what the risk if you're taking certain decision. And you have to make money for living too. Sobs. *Head down on table*

Am I ready for all of these?

I had come across to this one quote recently, growing older is mandatory but growing up is choice. Maybe some 'real' adult will think I am just 22, nothing to worry about life, I just need to enjoy my young age now. Some people choose not to think what kind of future they would like to live, they don't want to worry about the future. But, for me I choose to think and plan what future I want to live in but at the same time I choose not to worry about it. Because I believe, Allah had written all along my journey since I was born until the day I die, all rizks and blessings. He surely has already made for me.

The thing is how I'm supposed to find His blessing and work toward it.

Back to my LCD screen story, to be honest, I was quite frustrated at first when I faced this problem again. But, after few days, I must admit, from this problem I found a lil blessing.

How?

When I disconnect my life with social media life, I lessen my time for internet. So I spent my time to going out to find some peace outside, I saw physically real people with my own eyes in park and I do physical activities. I saw children running here and there, jumping up and down, laughing out loud with no worries appearing in their face. Yeah, its not that bad living without phone. *smile*

I now appreciate my time living limited time with phone. I will survive another few weeks with this condition. Let see what will happen and how my life will be.


Love,
AH



Thursday, August 31, 2017

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Monday, August 28, 2017

Offer me a job

Tomorrow will be my last day practical. After that, I will be free for two weeks before my new semester starts. I am thinking it will be good if I can make some money and gain another experience during these free days. So, I want to offer to people out there who needs help or want to use my service temporarily. Please.. Please.. Please.. let me know and contact me..

What I am good at

  1. Keying data
  2. Writing
  3. Using Microsoft word and excel
  4. Editing Video
  5. Designing banner, logo, poster etc (we can discuss)
  6. Babysitting (last option)

 Okey, why you have to use my service?

  1. You can pay me at any rate (seikhlas hati)
  2. I will complete the task as soon as possible (insyaAllah)
  3. I can do online and offline
How to approach me?
       email me at (arkitekhati@gmail.com)


I want to open just few slots so that I can focus and learn thoroughly. Please.. Please.. Offer me some job!

I need money for my travel savings and I need your money to grow my potential ;p

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With hope,
AH

Monday, August 28, 2017

Officially serious blogger

Bismillahirahmanirahim,

I would like to announce, this blog domain/link (diary-from-heaven) will be terminated soon. Ops! No no. I am not saying I will stop writing or blogging. But I will change this blog url to another domain. It would be the serious one. Hehehe. Please catch up me at www.ainieyshah.com

Hope to see you guys in this new domain and new journey.

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Sunday, August 27, 2017

Are you worried?- Sis Aida Azlin

I climbed up my bed at 10.00pm but I still wide awake up until now. It's 2.00 am already! I can't sleep. I didn't take nap since morning but I don't know how my brain and my body can still working at this moment.

So, I just wanna take few minutes to post something good here (while waiting my brain decides to rest).

Yesterday morning (since now is 2.00 am, it's already a new day), my facebook friend shared one video on her timeline. I found its quite interesting and inspiring video. It is a vlog. The vlogger is a lady. She is from singapore. 

After watched the video, I went to her facebook page and found her others videos. Then, I unintentionally watched about four vlogs straight! I was amazed by the way she interpreted, related and discussed the topic she brought up in her vlog.

Unfortunately, I had another thing to do, I couldn't manage to watch all. Sobs. InsyaAllah, I am looking forward to watch another vlog and her upcoming vlog soon. Hopefully can manage to watch it when I have free time.

In her vlog, she mostly talk about self motivation, islamic view, struggle as muslim lady and many other. I like the way she brought the issue and express it with her point of view. I like the open session she holds with other ladies to share their journey among them. I like the way she tadabbur the verse of Quran in her vlog. Ah, she already stole my heart with her humble message.

If I have a chance, I want to join her open session with other inspiring ladies.

Oh, I forgot to tell who is the amazing lady, she is Aida Azlin. You can search her facebook page and watch her vlog. Trust me, you gonna fall in love with her. She is amused.

One of the sharing I remember from her vlog, she talked about worrying. She had to go back to morroco and she said she started to worry because of being away from the people she love is a struggle. So, one of her friend gave some inspiring motivation and the truth of being far away from our comfort zone; family, friends, home and anything. It is tough and struggling. But somehow, she found the reliance between her and Allah became stronger.

In the same vlog, she reminded that Allah already said and promised, He will test us in our daily life (Q2:155) And she added despite of every difficulty we might face, Allah also has promised us three things:

1) He would not test us beyound our capabilities (Q2:286)
2) Every difficulty comes with ease, not after, not before but alongside. So lets just look after the ease.(Q94:6)
3)Whatever happens to us it is always always for the best (Q2:216)

This vlog really give me a heartwarming feeling. I need this reminder everyday. It is not easy to practise Islam in this challenging century. We need supportive system and people who can keep giving advise to each other and remind ourselves the purpose of life.

So, if you want to watch the full video, you can find out on her facebook page. I can't upload here because I update this post using my phone. So, I just leave the link below so that you can be inspired and motivated like me. Hehehe.

[Are you worried]

That's all. Its already 3.00 am. I just plan to take few minutes but it turn out to be an hour. Hahaha. Good night people! Not really night la.

Love,
AH



Self reminder: Don't drink coffee before sleep!

Friday, August 25, 2017

ZSR's birthday

So I barely talk about my close friend here, not because I don't have one but I don't really like to share my real life to other. As you might noticed (I think no one would notice), most of the thing I posted here is all about my heavy feeling, my crumble thought, my wandered mind. Everything is from what I think and what I feel. 

Not so much about activities I did with the person around me. I do like capture moments and reminisced old memories but I am not sure, it is something good to post it here. Well, I need a private life too. Making everything available in cyber make one life less unique. Just share something that benefit to other is foremost. 

I don't have intention to make the intro quite long like this, but seem I'd already done it. Nay. So back to real topic. Today is my favorite person's birthday.

I met her during my semester one at UTM. She was my aras-mate back then, and insyaAllah will be my roomate soon. We decide to live together for our final year before we move to another stage of life. We have planned so many ridiculous things to do together! And I am so excited to do those things.

We have a lot of chemistry. Even though, our background is quite different, like she is from boarding  school, she studied electrical since secondary, she has two elder sisters, two elder brothers and two younger brothers. She is matured as she grows up from quite large number of family member. She is petite and I always bully her. 

I absolutely am different from her. So to me, we are meant together and our presence is to complete each other. 

For about three years knowing her, we have gone so many ups and downs in our life but seem she is more stronger than I am. I admire her on how she handle all the trials she had faced without no one notice she was enduring the pain alone.

Being with her makes me appreciate my family member a lot. She makes me realize, whoever you are in this world, but if you can't love and respect you family, you are just nothing. Because, they are the person who knows you from the very beginning of your life and will stay as your family till the end of your life. Appreciate them.

Yeah, a lot of things, I admire about her. But today is not the only day I can share about her. Because we promise to be best friend forever so just wait our friendship stories another suitable time. Hopefully. 

For me, choose the right people to be your surrounding is important because they are the reflaction version of you. The right person who can encourage you to be someone better is the motto of friendship. In her, I found my strength and she is the one who worth to keep.

Thank you ZSR for being beautiful friend of mine. I surely gonna tell about you to my grandchildren and tell them  how ridiculous you can be. Seriously.

May Allah grants your wishes and place you at highest jannah. Don't forget about our mission to lose more weight next semester, I guess a lot of work out and diet plan we need to do. So lets hold onto each other and try our best. Hooyeeahhh.

Your future roomate,
AH

Friday, August 25, 2017

Appreciate single moment

At the age of 22, when most of your friends are going out with their partner and having lovey dovey moment, you being you just enjoy your moment and your food without have the needs to share with other people.

Somehow it is my honest opinion. Well, being single is not bad. Despite of protecting your dignity as muslim woman, you also have a lot of time to treasure about yourself.

You have a lot of time to rearrange your life, your future planning, your schedule etc. Planning for future is a must. Somehow, when I go deeper into my life, I become clueless. The more I know myself, the more I know nothing. The more I treasure about my potential, the more I see my weakness. So, I have a lot of work to do to improve myself instead of building uncertain lovey dovey relationship.

I am not denied, we as human has the desire to love and to be loved but as the right time come and I am ready to be more serious and the right person willingly come and hand me a marry. I am surely will go for it. But for now,I don't really sure to be commited to find or to wait the right person to come into my life.

What I am thinking now, lets focus on improving ourselves and be serious to develop ourselves to be a better muslim. Knowledge, savings, serving my parents, travelling and make a lot of friends is priority. 

We have to love ourselves first before we want people to love us. 




Motivated,
AH

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Broken people

In this world, I have met a lot of broken people with my own eyes. Some I witnessed from the very start how they got broke, some I saw how they stood up back after certain period from their broken phase.

Some already bear the burden for too long, some just face it few minutes ago just before I started to write this post.

Some get broke by their own trusted people, some get broke because of the expectation people put on her, some get broke because they coudn't meet what other people needs, some get broke because of the result they got were not the same as they expected. Some... hmm..

Everyone has faced broken episode in their life. Everyone has burdened their own problem in daily life. No one would exclude from facing broken heart, even from just a simple thing to a huge thing. Everyone will face.

But, what makes a broken people different from each other is how they encounter the problem and overcome their broken phase- is the matter. That is how they made a difference as a person.

Even the most successful person in this world would face broken period in life. Thomas Edison, the one who discovered the element that is used to light up the bulb faced 999 wrong ways first, before found the right one.

Every problem in this world has the solution. It just the matter of time. And Not Giving Up.

I am one of the heart-broken people who several time stumble on the same circumstances. Being broke by the one I trust to love, is disaster. Hurtful. Distressing. Wounding.

No words can truly describe the feeling of being broke by the person we love.

For sure, the broken part leave deep scars.

It's not only the broken part needs time to heal, but the scars left is one of crucial thing to look after. And the time it takes to truly cure is longer. No guarantee. Sometime, the scars appear not as what people see. Because it is not physical hurt only, but psychological is foremost. 

How I want to tell my brain, the broken part is healed if the brain seem trying being smarter than my body? Huh.

Only broken people will know that scars don't heal easily; it's long and tiring battle.

It is the matter of time to heal; for the broken part and the scars. I believe it will be cured. So, it needs time. 

May Allah helps me through. I know He is the best curer and healer. 

Note to my self: When people hurt you, don't ever have intention to hurt other people. Don't let them feel what you feel. Don't let them bear what you bear. Be kind to everyone because we don't know who is enduring their pain and who is battling with their struggle. The scars doesn't appear as it is. So we don't know what they feel. Be kind to people.

Love,
AH

Thursday, August 24, 2017

At 3:12 am

I am still wide awake at this hour. My eyes wanted to close by itself but my brain didn't allow it to do so. Whatever he wants it- he wants it. Jeez. 

I sometime have bad insomnia especially during my break down moment. Whenever I felt heartless, I became restless. Somehow. Maybe.

Since my intern roomate already completed her internship period and already went back to her hometown, I sadly am being alone in this room all myself. Nothing to do, no one to talk to. Everything become bitter and boring.

Staring to ceiling, back to phone. Volume up my headphone. Trying so hard to rest my bone. But, nay. I just killing the time which barely don't want to die. Haih. Why so hard meh?

Today, I didn't have proper breakfast, lunch and dinner. I felt so hungry at 11 o'clock. Then decided to take drive and find some real food. At this hour, all cafeteria in hospital already closed. So, no choice. I had to find stall outside the hospital.

I am bad at reading maps. Especially on road like Kuala Lumpur. Not gonna tell you how many time I went to wrong direction and take wrong turn. Hopeless. But, I can't deny with my starvation. Just keep driving.

So, because of some technical problem, I arrived and ordered my food at 12 o'clock. I am dead! Eating heavy food at this hour is just dreadful horrible and terrific!!! 

No wonder you can build fat successfully inside you body instead of muscle, dear... I nagged to myself while munching the food in my mouth.

O Allah,
Please forgive me because of not taking care of my body.
But, I am teribly hungry. I just can't help it.

However,
Thank you Allah,
For helping me out to search good food in this middle of night and in the middle city whom I didn't familiar to. Thank you Allah.

I typing out all these words and took almost an hour to sum up the freaking boring incident that happened in my life. Yah, no one would care what I am typing here. So, whateva!

Owh, by the way. I just found out the movie that I'd waiting since last year already come out at cinema. Ahhh. I want to watch it! I read some review, most of them said the movie was good. Cannot la like this.

So, whoever had watched Battleship Island, please leave you review link down below on my comment box because I want to read it meanwhile waiting for weekend to watch the movie. Thank you in advance.

Goodnight people!

Sleepy,
AH



Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Shampoo M'blica is the solution for hair loss



Today I want to share one of good product that I have used for three months to everyone who has same problem like me.

Hair fall is a real struggle for everyone in this world, no matter either you are man or woman, this hair fall is our enemy and outr biggest insecurity.

But, a lot of people out there still didn't found the best solution and suitable product to cure their problem. Yea, I had the same problem like guys but not until I met with this organic product- M'blica shampoo.

Alhamdulillah, this shampoo is working on me. Before this, I had tried a lot of other product in market, some of them even gave bad condition to my hair and I almost wanted to give up.

Until my auntie suggested me to this organic shampoo.

For the first month, i am using this shampoo with serum, it is from same brand. The serum used to repair my hair root. And I used the serum and shampoo everyday. In one month I can see the different. My hair loss is lesser than usual. My head didn't felt itchy since then. So after the serum run out, I just used the shampoo solely.

Now, its already three month, and I already repeat the order and get the new one. Alhamdulillah. I am satisfied with the product. My honest review, even though the result is quite late from other product i market but I think organic product is the safest solution for me. I am saying this because, I had nightmare with the previous product so this might influence my perception.

However, what might good for me would not work with some other people. So, it is just my honest review, okey.

So whoever have tried this product, please rise you hands up! ✋🏻  

Energetic,
AH

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Lunch at Sushi King for Bonanza Offer

This is not paid advertisment. This is just my honest review.

Today me and my friends went to sushi king to have our lunch. This is my second time. I love cute tiny food! Because it is easy for me to munch at one shoot. Yummieeeee.

So, today sushi king have offer, every plate costs RM3.18 included GST. So, you can eat as many as you want until you tummy become bloated.











So, these are some of my dishes. And the peak of happiness was the dessert. I had Durian Ice Cream Mochi. The taste was superbb. Blurp!

But, the best part of everything is having quality time with my friends who gonna finish their internship very soon. Knowing them is one of my favorite memories throughout my practical journey. Hope, they will be doing great and finish their degree with flying color (of course, insyaAllah)

Love,
AH

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

The basic thing you have to know about coffee

Just now, I scroll up my facebook and something did catch my attention. So, I think it is good to share here. As you might knowing, I am the coffeholic lady who might be seated next to you wanna share basic all the coffeeholic lover should know. Weeeheeehehehehe.


However, to be truth, I sometime got confused. Most of the urban cafe, got hipster names for the coffee they served, but actually it is the common coffee I've consumed. Neayy. (Confusing is a mess)

But, it's okey. The name doesn't matter, as long as the taste just get along with my type. Iamokey! Heeehehehe.

Well good night everyone!
Sleep tight

Sleepy,
AH

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Internship experience is a bliss

I still remember the first day I came to HUKM for my internship training. It was two months ago. That was the most sweaty day in my life. (You don't know how I was swimming with my own sweat!) I had to run here and there just to find where traffic department and how to get to human resource department and where is on the earth they placed radiology department in such huge hospital.

Not to mention, how many time I got to the wrong place because of people whom I asked for direction gave me such a helpful hints for a noob first-timer person like me (please don't say to me like - Jalan terus then below kiri, if there have a lots of kiri. You need to be specific which kiri did you mean about)

I had to go to different buildings for different purposes and I needed to wait the super slow lift on this earth (maybe it happened when you felt exhausted). And after waiting patiently, then the lift was full. Ergh. 

Why now?
Sobs.

I had to take stairs and only God knows how I am bathing with my own sweats!

Just a little bit.
I monologue.

I keep walking. And try to build up my motivation back. Switching smile with people around me. I needed positive aura.

After settling few documents, I went to radiology department. The place where I was assigned to. I looked for my supervisor to reporting myself. If you ever come to radiology department in HUKM, you will know this department is located at the end of the world. It's so far away!

I wandered around for few minutes, trying to distinguish which one the staff working there. I needed to ask people. Then, I came to a middle aged lady, she is wearing HUKM tags. She might be a staff, I guessed.

AH: Salam, tumpang tanya. Dimana says nak lapor diri untuk internship trainee?
Lady: Student mana?
AH: UTM
Lady: Course apa?
AH: ee engineering
Lady: Kenapa engineering buat praktikal kat hospital? Saya rasa awak tak akan belajar banyak kat sini nanti.
AH: Erk. Owh. yeke

ON MY FIRST DAY of internship training, I got an unpleasant feedback from staff here - where we didn't even have any proper introduction to each other and yet she already predicted what kind of journey I would be walking through. I will not learn much??

After going such a tiring day from early in the morning until noon, running here and day. This very unmotivated welcomimg greeting somehow, it ruined my day. 

No. It ruined my WHOLE WEEK. I felt down to be honest. How can she gave such prediction to my own journey? How did she know I would not learned much here? I keep questioning her in my own self.

I try to naturalize myself. 

I might be too emotional. 

Maybe she's speechless when knowing future engineer walking down to the road and passing at the same street as they are. She might be worried about me because I would feel lonely because I would surrounded by different background of people, she might thinking I couldn't adapt with this new atmosphere. Hmm. She cared about me laa.

Awww.
She was trying being nice and heartwarming.

The whole week, I tried to naturalize myself by saying those words. I just don't want to be drowned with negative thoughts. 

Starting from second week, my journey at HUKM became brighter and amazing. 

And now, I almost finish my journey as practical student. Today, I can deny what the middle aged lady had said to me. She is totally wrong from the very beginning.

I learn so much much much things here. And the most important things, I am not only learn, but I'd created so much memories too. And making new friends is the biggest extra gifts.

Well, dammmpppp. You've wronged!


Love,
AH

Saturday, August 19, 2017

Ibu dan abah adalah harta bagi seorang 'aku'

Harta yang paling tidak ternilai harganya didunia ini selepas agama adalah ibu bapa. Kenapa? Tanpa ibu bapa, kita tidak mungkin berada disini.

Alhamdulillah, aku dikurniakan ibu bapa yang sangat menyayangi pada aku dan juga adik beradik yang lain. Allah.. rasa sukar nak gambarkan perasaan ini. Ibu dan abah adalah nikmat terbesar yang Allah kurniakan pada aku dan sering kali aku lupa mensyukuri nikmat yang satu ini.

Ibu dan abah adalah permata yang tidak mungkin akan dapat diganti dengan apa-apa yang ada didunia ini. Tidak mungkin.

Dahulu, aku pernah melawati rumah anak yatim. Satu perkara yang aku paling tersentuh adalah bila aku melihat wajah-wajah mereka, hati aku terdetik..

'Kalau diorang sedih, pada siapa diorang hendak mengadu?'

'Kalau diorang memerlukan duit untuk beli barang keperluan mereka, pada siapa diorang nak minta wang saku?'

'Kalau mereka merindu untuk dipeluk oleh tangan seorang ayah atau seorang ibu, pada siapa diorang hendak memberitahu rasa mereka?'

..........

Aku semua ada
Aku semua dapat
Allah..
Bila aku fikir semula
Betapa kurangnya aku bersyukur
atas kehadiran dan keberadaan ibu dan abah ku disisiku selama ini

Aku ada ibu
tempat aku mengadu
tempat aku meluah rasa
tempat aku merujuk
tempat aku menjadikan panduan
tempat aku mempelajari selok belok kehidupan

Aku ada abah
tempat aku berlindung
tempat aku minta pertolongan
tempat aku minta rujukan
tempat aku bersandar
tempat aku mendewasakan diri

Aku ada mereka
Sedangkan mungkin ramai orang diluar sana tidak memiliki apa yang aku miliki
Sedangkan mungkin ramai orang diluar sana tidak senasib dengan aku
Sedangkan mungkin ramai orang diluar sana tidak dilahirkan dalam keluarga seperti aku

Jujur
Aku rasa aku sangat kurang bersyukur
Allah...
Jika suatu hari nanti Allah mengambil mereka semula dariku tanpa sempat aku mensyukuri dan menghargai kehadiran mereka..
Amat malang dan celakalah aku...

Allah...
Sempatkan aku untuk membalas jasa mereka
Berilah peluang padaku menjadi asbab kesyurganya mereka
Jadikan aku anak yang berbakti pada mereka sehingga akhir hayat mereka

Biarlah aku tidak jadi siapa-siapa didunia ini, asalkan aku adalah harta dan jambatan mereka ke syurga

Allah..
Jangan biarkan aku lupa akan jasa-jasa mereka
Jangan pernahkan ia berlaku

Allah..
Aku memerlukan mu
Untuk mengingatkan ku
Atas kehadiran mu
Dan kehadiran mereka dalam hidupku

Allah redhailah mereka
Cintailah mereka
Bangunkan mahligai yang indah buat mereka disyurga firdausmu, mahligai yang dekat dengan mu dan kekasihmu




Humbly,
AH

Monday, August 14, 2017

Favorite Korean Instant Coffee

I am coffeeholic lady who might being seated next to you, enjoying sipping my cup of coffee alone at urban cafe and never care less about people around because I'd been travelling to another world of mine with just a cup of coffee in my hand.

I like to try different type of coffees listed on menu board but somehow, most of the time, I turn out order the same type of coffee. (It's very tempting to try all!)

Coffee is my therapy when I got headache or when I feel gloomy. I need strong taste to boast my energy and fix up my hormone back. So far, this one is perfectly suit and work for me.

But when I got stress, my therapy is travelling or going out to the place I've never been or take one or two hours driving to nowhere and get lost in unfamiliar place.

Or just calling my mom. (She is a super good therapist)

No need for shopping or any entertainment like watching movie or karaoke. To be honest, I don't really like to go to places with so many people, crowded, or too much noise. It gives me more stress. (But, I like being surrounded by my friends and having non-stop chatting and laughing.)

Back to coffee topic, these days, I like to drink this one instant coffee that my mom bought it from Korea, MAXIM if I'm not spell it wrongly. The packaging looks like coffee 3-IN-1 Nestle, but for me the flavor is much better. The savor is good and ideal to my taste. Not too thick and not too light - it just in the middle.



Normally, I don't prefer instant coffee, but for MAXIN I can go with it. We are best friend now. Hooyeahh. 

Whenever I can't afford to enjoy a cup of coffee at urban cafe because I am on budgeting. This one is good enough to satisfy my coffeeholic's desire.

Love,
AH

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Masjid Cina Negeri Melaka

Yesterday, me and my parents and my sister, POH visited my brother at KMM. It was a long journey to get there. Because, Lebuhraya Utara-Selatan was super jammed. The cars moved very slow. We needed to change our route last minute.

Then, we had to drop by at Poslaju Centre Alor Gajah to get my brother's parcel because they misplaced it. It is important parcel to him. He supposed to get the parcel a day after it been posted but hmm never mind thing already happened.

My brother already waited us, we had our late lunch at his cafe, chatting a little bit while, then we continued our journey to my mom's hometown. Whenever we went to Malacca, we would sleepover one night at my grandma's house.

On the way to my grandma's house, we got the chance to stop by at Masjid Cina Negeri Melaka for minutes. Masjid Cina Negeri Melaka (MCMN) is Chinese-style mosque located at Krubong, Melaka. It is a beautiful mosque. The scenery is so peaceful.



If you ever come to Malacca, please get the chance to stop by here. And do two rakaat of sunnah prayer. The place is amazing and very calming.

Love,
AH

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Confusion phase. Help me!

Aku tak pernah tahu siapakah orang-orang yang membaca blog ini. Aku juga tidak tahu siapakah orang-orang yang mengikuti blog since dari ia lahir sehingga ke hari ini. Yang cuma aku tahu blog ini ada 'viewer'nya. So, untuk viewer(s) blog ini, semoga sentiasa dalam rahmat dan kasih sayang Allah. Semoga apa yang tercoret memberi manfaat terutamanya buat yang sedang menaip ini, seterusnya untuk yang sedang membaca. Hai awak :-)

Hari ini aku bersyukur sangat kerana dengan adanya tulisan-tulisan yang pernah aku pamerkan disini banyak menjadi asbab aku gigih meneroka dunia ini dan sabar menyelami diri aku sendiri. It is not easy to understand what we want because as human we want all.

Aku mungkin mewakili satu dalam 18 juta manusia di muka bumi ini, yang punya terlalu banyak soalan, yang punya terlalu banyak kekurangan, yang punya terlalu banyak masa kejatuhan, yang terlalu banyak rebel dengan tuhan. Tetapi,betapa sayang yang tuhan pada aku, setiap persoalan aku dijawab tepat pada masanya, setiap kekurangan aku ditutup dengan kasih sayangNya, setiap masa kejatuhan aku diangkat ke ribaNya dan setiap rebel aku dibalas dengan cinta dan perhatianNya.

Aku mungkin mewakili satu dalam 18 ribu manusia di muka bumi ini, yang punya terlalu banyak cita-cita, yang punya terlalu banyak impian, yang punya terlalu banyak harapan. Tetapi, aku juga adalah seorang manusia yang sangat takut terbang untuk mencapai apa yang aku inginkan. Aku takut jika aku terbang tinggi, bila diuji lalu aku tidak kembali pulang. Aku takut jika aku terbang tinggi, bila diuji lalu jatuh terhempas menyembah bumi. Kerana takut, aku tersangkut, antara terbang tinggi atau terapung dilantai bumi.

Aku mungkin mewakili satu dalam 18 digit manusia di muka bumi ini, yang keliru dalam kejelasan, yang samar dalam keterangan, yang celaru dalam ketenangan, yang sunyi dalam kebisingan, yang ego dalam ketundukan, yang putus asa dalam kesabaran. Sesuatu yang kontradik hidup di dalam kesamarataan. Seperti Mr Hyde yang hidup di dalam Dr Jekyll.

Aku mungkin mewakili mereka yang ingin bersuara, tetapi dirinya tidak mengizinkan dia untuk bersuara. Terlalu banyak persoalan yang ada dalam kotak kepala otak, tetapi persoalan itu bukan mahukan jawapan tetapi hanya hadir untuk menyerabutkan ruang fikiran. Its sound creepy kan? But, I know its exists. 

Benar, bukan?
Teman-teman?

Well, I guess its normal. Maybe. I am not sure. Because, at certain phase of human life, we will face the confusion moments that gives us confuse to what life is all about. Yea. We start asking why. Why this. Why that. We want to know badly the reason behind everything that happened in our life. And bla bla bla. Ain't?

It happens to me. NOW. I am scared of this phase. So, I start reading books and articles about human body, human hormones, human growth, human psychology and lots other. However, I found the fact that none of this can give a perfect guidance and guideline. Until something poked my lazy brain, hellyuu, why did Allah sends to us al-Quran and protects the book since 1400 years ago until now. Why? and for what? It must be something that our Creator wants us to know.

This morning I start to prepare my presentation,slide and speech materials because next week my lecturer will come and visit me at my workplace. So, when I was doing my slide presentation, I had to refer several books and references and also a manual of machine. When I look through the manual, somehow I realized every brand machine has different manual book even though the machine is using the same concept and principle of working for the machine to function. Different brands has different ways to handle. So the creator of the machine knows the best on how the machine is functioning, so it puts on manual so that the user knows how to use it.

It is same goes to us. If we totally believe Allah is our creator, we must believe the manual He writes for us. Yea al-Quran is the manual. Our creator knows what is best for us. Every guidelines is in there. We need to open, read, understand and act upon it. I need to open, read, understand and act upon it.

Tetapi, aku tahu untuk mulakan itu susah. Apatah lagi mahu kekal istiqamah. Huh. Aku pernah dengan ustaz kata, nak istiqamah ni, hati kena ikhlas. Hmm. Macam mana nak hati ikhlas eh? Sedangkan hati ni lah yang selalu lalai dan selalu buat dosa. Haih. Moga Allah bantu aku dan kamu. Sebab Dia saja yang pegang hati aku dan kamu. Moga Dia pegang erat sehingga dapat bertemu dengan Dia yang satu. Allah...


Love,
AH

Nota Kaki: Tolong doakan saya untuk presentation saya minggu depan. Harap segalanya berjalan lancar. Doakan saya banyak-banyak tau!