Monday, October 23, 2017

The story of SR and Tj

The one who responsible in exposing me to blogging world is my bestfriend, SR.

I met her when I was in form 3 during my secondary school back in 2010. So, in number I might know her for almost 7 years. But, in reality I only know her less than 2 or 3 years. Because a year later after our friendship started, we have studied separately. She was in MRSM TGB and I was still in the same school. And currently, she studies in Irbid, Jordan and I study in Johor. 

Gratefully, our friendship doesn’t end even after we were away from each other. Alhamdulillah.

Throwing back our time years ago, there were few things that made me so overwhelmed about our memories, something that coloring my teenage journey. We had some weird and a bit nerd 'rituals' when we were around together. But, these kind of 'rituals' truly create our memories so well. 

Do you want to know what is it? (Please make a cute duck face first!)

Hahaha. Okey, let me tell you..

Our favourite hang-out place is MPH midvalley. We usually spent our time in the bookstore at least 3 hours yet we never realized the time had passed. When I thinking back what I was doing during that time, I guessed I only stared at the books and looking around from one row to another row, from one shelf to another shelf. Being surrounded with books, do really make me happy and lost in the island of knowledge😁😂

SR is the same. We sometime losed to each other. Until our tummy gave the sign they needed to be filled with something, then we started looking for each other. HuuHuu.

Book festival is another level. We really loved pesta buka antarabangsa. Books never make us worry about losing our money. Never. I really miss those moment when we went around the hall from one level to another level, frow west to east, north to south until my feet got ‘melecet’, only then we stopped. Hihihi. Well, that is our best moment . Can we do it again, SR?😏

We are the fans of Matluthfi, he is a youtuber. During our time, matluthfi’s video was kind of spirit burner. Its burn our mood to study and push us to think bigger. Yea, because of he studied oversea, we saw him as kind of an outstanding role model for teenage. Lol. By the way, his video is quite good and the content is great. He never failed to make me feel 'perghhhh'.

I liked sleepover at her house. We would chat all night long, talking about our future, our stuffs and our ex-crush. Hahaha. Her room smelled good. I recognized the smell well enough and it just like whenever I smell the same fragrance at anywhere, I will inevitably remember her. Her room also was so tidy and organized. And the most important thing, her mom cooked is so yummy. I couldn't say NO if she asked me to add another scoop of rice. Who's shame? It's your uncle? 😜

Owhyeah, her mom is a lecturer in my university but she teaches at faculty of mechanical engineering which opposite to my faculty.

Huuuuu. We are so close. To me, she is very nice and I would say she is the sweetest girl I’ve met in my life. 

There was one time, she caught in accident. She got burn on her left hand. The fire caught her left hand while she was cleaned up her front yard. It was quiet major injuring. I cried for her, but I didn’t cry in front of her. I wanted she be strong. I felt sorry for her. But, I could do nothing😔

But, she was  (and still) really a strong girl and well-motivated. She moved forward and did not letting the accident broke her down even though that year we will face big examination, PMR. Now, she is fully recover. Its already 6 years passed, but the memories is still remain. I still remember how she struggled wearing the healing glove, how she struggled to avoid from people asking about her hand and the accident and I saw how she struggled to cover the pain and keep on smiling while in front of other people. Oh, dear! You're such a strong and indestructible girl!😎

Two years ago, 2015, when she was back from Jordan for holiday, we'd planned to meet. (KFC Aeon Taman Uni) And along our meeting and chatting, she suddenly said about something that made my heart fluttered. She told me someone had proposed her and want to hand her a marry. At first I definitely didn't agree. I was like 'are you serious?' 'we're still studying' 'why so fast?'. But I couldn't let the words out. I just prayed and hoped for the best and I do really hope Allah will guide her.

Then, last year, 2016. She's finally married. Not with the same guy she'd told me. When she got engaged, she didn't tell me. So I only know about her engagement through her little sister. SR said, she wanted to tell me in person when she was already in Malaysia. Her engagement happened in small and close gathering. She was even not in that gathering because she was still in Jordan, the engagement happened between their family only. It was quick and short occasion. I was quite surprised at first but I couldn't not to feel happy and excited for her engagement. She is my bestfriend, anything makes her happy, will make me happy too😇

It was your time, dear.

This year stated another biggest memories in her life where she delivered a beautiful and healthy caliph in month of ramadhan. As her friend, I was pretty excited, anxious and nervous waiting the news from her. When I knew she already admitted to hospital, I kept updating with her through instagram. I kept asking my Ibu to pray for her. And my Ibu was like 'eh, dia yang nak bersalin kenapa kamu yang macam cacing kepanasan' Yea, I was a bit exaggerated. Because, she is my BESTFRIEND, I couldn't help myself to stay calming because she is far away from me. Lol. Hahaha.

I know it might be tougher for her, when she had an exam just around the corner but the baby was waiting the right time to come out at any minutes. However, she succeeded to go through this critical and adrenaline rush moment.

19062017 Tj was came out to see the world👶

After three months of seeing the world. And auntie AH only saw and update his stories through instagram. He's finally met Auntie AH in person on 15092017. He's cute and adorable. Frankly, I am a bit awkward holding my bestfriend's baby. I adore baby so much, but holding Tj gave a different feeling for myself.

I grew up with his mother, I saw his mother's life progression, her broken down phases and her successful moments. And today, I held something that didn't exist before but now he was breathing in front of me, chuckling, smiling and even holding my fingers. MasyaAllah.

MasyaAllah. I never know what life can be in future. Alhamdulillah for everything Allah make easy for us.

May Allah guide and protect us through this journey with iman.

For my dearest friend, SR, as I always say. Distance never makes us become a stranger as long as we keep our friendship in our du'a and relying onto Allah to protect and make our friendship long last. For seven years to infinity, shall we? Hihihi.

Thank you for being my bestfriend. Thank you for praying the good things for me. Thank you for helping me out during my worst condition and when I was lost in finding the meaning of life. Thank you for always always always listen to my stories. Thank you for giving me an opportunity to have a beautiful friendship in my life with you. Thank you for being such a good inspiration because I've learned some live lessons through your stories. Thank you for always supporting me and providing me wonderful advice since the day one I met you.

Happy Birthday on your 22 year old.
Sanah Helwa, dear.
Keep strong and keep fighting!
Be who you want to be.
Don't let the world define you.
You are the one who can define what kind of world you want to live.
I love you for the sake of Him😍

Your beautiful and thoughtful friend,

PS: She shares the same date with my mom's birthday and that makes it more valuable.

Saturday, October 21, 2017

Comfort zone

I always have my own comfort zone. Even I try to deny it, but I still have to admit. I have my own comfort zone. And up until now, I still don’t go beyond my comforting zone.

Okey, what is actually comfort zone? 

My definition of comfort zone is a situation or job or task or goal which I can do much better about it but I don’t, due to I don’t want taking risk or getting involve with any problem or I avoid my heart from getting hurt. 

Comfort zone is a barrier between safe life and challenging life. Safe life is something like spoon feeding life where you rely on someone or something to push you out while challenging life is something like being totally independent.

I always thought I can do a lot of things, but thought is just being a thought. No action. For example, I’d planned to do vlogging thingy but up until today, no progression. I’d planned to write and post new entry everyday but I don’t take it seriously.

Comfort zone is an attitude of taking things for granted, waiting opportunity to come and always saying ‘maybe next time’.

Comfort zone is a fear. A fear that lives in our body. A fear that eats our soul. A fear that kills our dream. A fear that draws us back and let us live in humanless body.

I am worried of myself. I am living in my comforting zone. I have no idea. Hmm. I am clueless.

How to get out of here?

Guide me..


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Nak naik kete-tapi versi 2017

I still remember the last time I wrote about my cousins insisted to ride a train, it was five years back. And I cannot deny, last Sunday was like a dejavu to me. You can read the story of 5 years back [here]

Ya rabbi, I miss this moment. 

5 years ago was like yesterday. They've grown up. I am too. Sobs sobs. The story goes, I planned to go to Lowyat on Sunday and my little cousin overnight at my house. Because of one of them, having one year added in his age, we planned to celebrate his birthday by taking him jalan-jalan. I take them riding MRT for the first time.

They were astonished. They were excited. I can see from their face.

MasyaAllah. I said to them, this is how we live. See the world! Look! The sky is blue and it is so big. Look! The birds are flying freely. You know to whom they belong?


Huhuhu. Bringing them jalan-jalan was a big lesson for me. Teaching and growing the young generation are not easy nowadays. Too much external challenges. Seeing them exploring the world gave a new spirit, I must hold on to whatever come to my life. Because I have God to be served, I have young generation to inspire. Hmm...

Birthday boy with peace sign. Hope you're growing up well. May Allah guide and protect you always. Be a good slave, a good son and a good caliph. Amin. 

Be a good brother too. Hopefully, you will read this post one-day and thanked me because I keep your childhood memories here. Hehehe.

Kakak AH

Monday, October 16, 2017

Sambal Rendang and Sambal Goreng

Having a Javanese blood running in my vein doesn't allow me not to learn and master in few 'wajib' recipes, or I am not gonna been acknowledged as part of Javanese's decedent. Seriously!

No, I'm just kidding😝

Before the midsem break, I made a promise to myself I would learn few new recipes from my mom so that if one day I were away from my mom and my throat insists to eat malay food, I don't have to worry to calling mom all the way from oversea to Malaysia just to get the recipes and ya Alhamdulillah. I have learned two recipes. Sambal Rendang and Sambal Goreng.

Sambal Rendang


-Bawang besar
-Bawang putih
-Cili kisar

-masukkan ayam, santan dan bahan kisaran dalam periuk
-masuk air untuk empukkan air
-rebus semua bahan, tambah asam keping, gula melaka dan garam
-masukkan, daun limau purut, ayam dah empuk, siap!

Unfortunately, I had deleted my pictures on my phone TT

Sambal Goreng

-Sayur kacang [diracik]
-Tempe [digoreng]
-Kentang [digoreng]
-mee suhun [direndam]

Tumbuk dalam lesung
-bawang besar
-bawang putih
-ikan bilis
-cili padi

-tumis bahan tumbuk
-masukkan sayur kacang, tempe dan kentang
-kalau nak gelap, boh kicap
-kalau nak lemak, boh santan
-kalau nak biashe-biashe, tak perlu boh kicap atau santan
-masukkan su hun
-semua dah sebati, siap!

I am leaving the recipes here so that I can refer back. I am worried if I blindly remove my folder if I keep in my phone, just like I'm done to this recipe's pictures.

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Sambal Goreng, this is how it supposed to look like.

But, Sambal Rendang is our family's tradition food. It's different from other rendang out there. No minyak or goreng-goreng. If I cook again, I will share the pictures.


Monday, October 16, 2017

EOS M10 my new buddy

Photography is therapeutic for me. I love capture moment and beautiful scenery. But I never thought of having my personal camera. I don’t really like bring heavy and bulky stuff here and there. I am a bit clumsy, I hate losing my stuff. This is the reason I don’t ever think to have my own camera except the camera I already have on my phone. I prefer something simple and small which I can put easily inside my handbag.

But, recently I made a big decision to have my own camera because of early this year I just know about mirrorless camera. To me, mirrorless camera is kind of mini dslr which is compact but the lens can be changeable, not so bulky and light. I survey and study about mirrorless camera and just recently I decided to buy one for me.😁

Introduce to you my buddy.

Canon EOS M10

Now capturing moments is so much easy for me. It has touch-screen system, the screen can be flip so that I can easily taking selfie, the lens can be changeable, it also has wifi so I can effortlessly transferring my picture and video to my phone, it has the same feature like gopro too, controlling using phone and wide angle feature. And the lens is manually control, like dslr. Fuhh. Sounds great ay? ❤️

I still learn to get used with it. I can’t wait to travel with this new buddy and share with you guys all of my pictures. Hehehe.


Footnote: Just wondered did any of you uses the same camera like mine? Do you mind to share your experience or tips?