Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Don't lose focus

Dear Aini,

no matter what happen, please.. don't lose your focus. Don't ever lose your focus. You are the only one who can control your emotion. Please be aware and stay on track. No matter how hard and how hurt your feelings, please bury it. Please.

This is your future, don't take for granted. Tolak tepi segala kekecewaan untuk sementara ini. Jangan fikirkan langsung. You take control of your life.

Kau kecewa, takpe

Kau terluka, takpe

Kau terasa, takpe

Semua ini sementara.

Allah ada
Allah ada
Allah ada

Yakin please TT

Takpe Aini
Sikit je ni
Kau dah biasa dengan keterlukaan macam ni kan
Sikit je ni
Dulu lagi sakit kan?
Takpe la

Sudah2 jangan menangis
Jangan biar orang tahu kau tengah sedih
Jangan biar orang tahu kau tengah kecewa
Jangan susahkan orang

Allah bagi pinjamkan kebahagian sekejap tu tolonglah bersyukur

Please, Aini..
Kuat ye
Jangan nangis dah
Sekarang usaha nak masuk syurga
Dalam syurga nanti dah takde benda2 sedih ni

Okey, Aini?
Senyum sikit
Lap air mata tu

Sunday, December 10, 2017

Misteri barang mekap korea hilang

My family just got back from Korea. My Angah had his graduation ceremony yesterday. So everyone had already been home on friday night included me. I rode bus from skudai to KL just to attend and take part in one of our big event in family. Yea of course my existance is to take a LOTSSS of pictures. Huhuhuhu.

But, this is not my purpose to write today’s post. 

Sooner after I arrived, we usually had “pesta” unpacked bags to sort everythings out the items that my family bought from oversea.

And there one funny incident happened. My sister in law bought comestic products for her collegue and sister. But, she couldn’t find the products. It seemed lost out of sight. Everyone in my family took part to search it, we already unpacked and brought everything out from the luggage but we still couldn’t find it. 

We finally assumed maybe the products were left either in my dad’s appartment at Korea or at immigration office because before departure my dad was called my the immigration officer to variefy certain item that had in his luggage so maybe while my dad opened the bag and varified the products, he accidentally dropped the black plastic that filled with comestic products. We guessed.

When everyone seemed to be ‘redho’ and gave up on searching again, couple minutes passed, my mom went to kitchen to put something. She opened the freezer, then suddenly she saw one big black plastic in freezer near fresh fish. She suddenly 

“Ya Allah, bukan ni ke barang yang dicari-cari? Macam mana barang komestik boleh ada dalam tempat beku peti ais ni?”

Everyone confused and silent in a second, we then burst out laugh. So hard. OMG. Whose placed this comestic in freezer? 😂


So my advice, if you can’t search your lost item, maybe fridge is the last option you have. Go find them in there 😉


Angah G-Day 😘

Friday, December 08, 2017

A day in Singapore with Bee

Last Sunday, I went to Singapore to visit my Auntie. She lives in Toa Payoh. I entered Singapore using the easiest way, it is bus. I took bus from terminal Larkin and stop twice for immigration propose then our bus took us to Kranji MRT Station. Then, from Kranji MRT Station, I bought MRT ticket and chosed Toa Payoh as our destination.

I went to Singapore with the guy I'd just met. (You can read my previous post, as if you want to) Hihihi. My first intention to go to Singapore, of course for visiting my auntie. Yes. Seriously. Please, believe me. But, yea, there was another reason... which is... I want to know him at different side. I go travel with people just to get to know them better. I want to know about his life, his family, his plan for future and his inner side.

So, this is his first time went to Singapore. It took me 30 minutes to convince him to agree with my unplanned plan. Alhamdulillah he can get along with my crazy idea. The craziest part is not entering Singapore by riding bus, but the next day of visiting Singapore, we have class and mine was on 9.00 am. I tell you, I was super tired when I just got back to my university. My feet, my head, my limbs, all was punctured. Dush! There you go.

However, I must be honest, that day was one of the most happiest and exciting day I've ever have in my life. I was being myself in front of him. I never thought that I will get a chance to have that kind of 'dating trip' with the guy I am comfortable with. I heard a lot of stories from him which gives me an opened eye and mind, I always mumbled within myself, 'he has something different deep down inside him.'

I enjoyed the trip and I hope he was too. Taking one train to another train was super tired experience but that experience was badabuss! Alhamdulillah.

This is the place he said "where is the titan?" He is so fanatic with Attack on Titan, the Japanese anime. He is sometime can be so funny but also ridiculous and annoying at the same time.

The hotel at Marina Bay Sand. Too high to be achieved. But the surrounding is quite pleasant.

Orchard street. This place gave me headache because of there were a lot of foreign people. I hate crowd place fulled with people.

Singapore city

Marina Bay Sand. Nice view and you can watch water activity from here. But the activity starts at night. So maybe next time.


I never introduce his name right? So lets we call him, Bee.

To Bee,
thank you for being my crime partner of the day. Taking my pictures with perfect angle. Thank you for accompanying me all the way from Skudai to Singapore. I do really enjoy travelling with you. I love the moment you bring up one topic to another topic and never make me feel bored. I know I am type of person yang mudah terhibur but yea you know how to entertain me. Thank you angkatkan all the stuff and being gentleman. I really hope to have another trip with you again in future. Seriously. Vietnam? Shall we?


Thursday, November 30, 2017

The guy I'd just met

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I want to introduce a new character in my life. Not really new la. Hahaha. Its just a gimmick. He is someone I knew in 2014, 3 years ago but just to get to know him better now. Yea, the person is HE. A guy. 

We had collaborated once for one event I handled when I was a part of head committee in my college during 2014. And he was also one of my groupmate for Circuit and System subject during my second semester in UTM. So, our relationship only involving with this two things, after second semester I never contacted him anymore. Plus, I used new phone and I lost all my contact number so its really ended our relationship.

How we could get back again? I was stuck with my Capstone project which I was assigned to do coding using Arduino (you may google if you wanna know), I had no idea how to start because I never use it. So, I have heard few times from my fellow friends that HE is good with arduino and coding. When HIS name crossed to my mind, I don't thinking much, I just BOOMM contact HIM through insta DM. So, that is where our conversation has started.

HE is a nice guy. HE is very talented and humble. The reason I want to write about HIM is I want to remember the kindness HE had done for me which none of any man ever did.(Yea maybe because I don't really getting close to any man except my family) He helped me with my coding until completed, HE helped me finding the component for my project, HE consoled me when I had bad day especially when I couldn't perform well with one of my tests, HE always respond to me, HE handled me when I kept complaining about my project and when my mood was like roller coaster, HE always said "lek aini" when HE realized I was being too emotional. HE is so kind. So, all of these make me so comfortable with HIM.

I was amazed with HIS passion and talent. Even though I don't really know HIM but I could feel this guy has some specialties hiding behind HIM which I hope I can treasure more about it. As if I could.

I like to treasure about the person I feel comfortable with because I hope I can learn something. So yeah, that is the thing I want to update for now. Till next time.

ps: hopefully HE don't read this post. Or I would feel so shame. Please don't tell HIM yea! 

Monday, October 23, 2017

The story of SR and Tj

The one who responsible in exposing me to blogging world is my bestfriend, SR.

I met her when I was in form 3 during my secondary school back in 2010. So, in number I might know her for almost 7 years. But, in reality I only know her less than 2 or 3 years. Because a year later after our friendship started, we have studied separately. She was in MRSM TGB and I was still in the same school. And currently, she studies in Irbid, Jordan and I study in Johor. 

Gratefully, our friendship doesn’t end even after we were away from each other. Alhamdulillah.

Throwing back our time years ago, there were few things that made me so overwhelmed about our memories, something that coloring my teenage journey. We had some weird and a bit nerd 'rituals' when we were around together. But, these kind of 'rituals' truly create our memories so well. 

Do you want to know what is it? (Please make a cute duck face first!)

Hahaha. Okey, let me tell you..

Our favourite hang-out place is MPH midvalley. We usually spent our time in the bookstore at least 3 hours yet we never realized the time had passed. When I thinking back what I was doing during that time, I guessed I only stared at the books and looking around from one row to another row, from one shelf to another shelf. Being surrounded with books, do really make me happy and lost in the island of knowledge😁😂

SR is the same. We sometime losed to each other. Until our tummy gave the sign they needed to be filled with something, then we started looking for each other. HuuHuu.

Book festival is another level. We really loved pesta buka antarabangsa. Books never make us worry about losing our money. Never. I really miss those moment when we went around the hall from one level to another level, frow west to east, north to south until my feet got ‘melecet’, only then we stopped. Hihihi. Well, that is our best moment . Can we do it again, SR?😏

We are the fans of Matluthfi, he is a youtuber. During our time, matluthfi’s video was kind of spirit burner. Its burn our mood to study and push us to think bigger. Yea, because of he studied oversea, we saw him as kind of an outstanding role model for teenage. Lol. By the way, his video is quite good and the content is great. He never failed to make me feel 'perghhhh'.

I liked sleepover at her house. We would chat all night long, talking about our future, our stuffs and our ex-crush. Hahaha. Her room smelled good. I recognized the smell well enough and it just like whenever I smell the same fragrance at anywhere, I will inevitably remember her. Her room also was so tidy and organized. And the most important thing, her mom cooked is so yummy. I couldn't say NO if she asked me to add another scoop of rice. Who's shame? It's your uncle? 😜

Owhyeah, her mom is a lecturer in my university but she teaches at faculty of mechanical engineering which opposite to my faculty.

Huuuuu. We are so close. To me, she is very nice and I would say she is the sweetest girl I’ve met in my life. 

There was one time, she caught in accident. She got burn on her left hand. The fire caught her left hand while she was cleaned up her front yard. It was quiet major injuring. I cried for her, but I didn’t cry in front of her. I wanted she be strong. I felt sorry for her. But, I could do nothing😔

But, she was  (and still) really a strong girl and well-motivated. She moved forward and did not letting the accident broke her down even though that year we will face big examination, PMR. Now, she is fully recover. Its already 6 years passed, but the memories is still remain. I still remember how she struggled wearing the healing glove, how she struggled to avoid from people asking about her hand and the accident and I saw how she struggled to cover the pain and keep on smiling while in front of other people. Oh, dear! You're such a strong and indestructible girl!😎

Two years ago, 2015, when she was back from Jordan for holiday, we'd planned to meet. (KFC Aeon Taman Uni) And along our meeting and chatting, she suddenly said about something that made my heart fluttered. She told me someone had proposed her and want to hand her a marry. At first I definitely didn't agree. I was like 'are you serious?' 'we're still studying' 'why so fast?'. But I couldn't let the words out. I just prayed and hoped for the best and I do really hope Allah will guide her.

Then, last year, 2016. She's finally married. Not with the same guy she'd told me. When she got engaged, she didn't tell me. So I only know about her engagement through her little sister. SR said, she wanted to tell me in person when she was already in Malaysia. Her engagement happened in small and close gathering. She was even not in that gathering because she was still in Jordan, the engagement happened between their family only. It was quick and short occasion. I was quite surprised at first but I couldn't not to feel happy and excited for her engagement. She is my bestfriend, anything makes her happy, will make me happy too😇

It was your time, dear.

This year stated another biggest memories in her life where she delivered a beautiful and healthy caliph in month of ramadhan. As her friend, I was pretty excited, anxious and nervous waiting the news from her. When I knew she already admitted to hospital, I kept updating with her through instagram. I kept asking my Ibu to pray for her. And my Ibu was like 'eh, dia yang nak bersalin kenapa kamu yang macam cacing kepanasan' Yea, I was a bit exaggerated. Because, she is my BESTFRIEND, I couldn't help myself to stay calming because she is far away from me. Lol. Hahaha.

I know it might be tougher for her, when she had an exam just around the corner but the baby was waiting the right time to come out at any minutes. However, she succeeded to go through this critical and adrenaline rush moment.

19062017 Tj was came out to see the world👶

After three months of seeing the world. And auntie AH only saw and update his stories through instagram. He's finally met Auntie AH in person on 15092017. He's cute and adorable. Frankly, I am a bit awkward holding my bestfriend's baby. I adore baby so much, but holding Tj gave a different feeling for myself.

I grew up with his mother, I saw his mother's life progression, her broken down phases and her successful moments. And today, I held something that didn't exist before but now he was breathing in front of me, chuckling, smiling and even holding my fingers. MasyaAllah.

MasyaAllah. I never know what life can be in future. Alhamdulillah for everything Allah make easy for us.

May Allah guide and protect us through this journey with iman.

For my dearest friend, SR, as I always say. Distance never makes us become a stranger as long as we keep our friendship in our du'a and relying onto Allah to protect and make our friendship long last. For seven years to infinity, shall we? Hihihi.

Thank you for being my bestfriend. Thank you for praying the good things for me. Thank you for helping me out during my worst condition and when I was lost in finding the meaning of life. Thank you for always always always listen to my stories. Thank you for giving me an opportunity to have a beautiful friendship in my life with you. Thank you for being such a good inspiration because I've learned some live lessons through your stories. Thank you for always supporting me and providing me wonderful advice since the day one I met you.

Happy Birthday on your 22 year old.
Sanah Helwa, dear.
Keep strong and keep fighting!
Be who you want to be.
Don't let the world define you.
You are the one who can define what kind of world you want to live.
I love you for the sake of Him😍

Your beautiful and thoughtful friend,

PS: She shares the same date with my mom's birthday and that makes it more valuable.